Got it together?
Hm. Recently, I have felt like I ask myself “What’s next to finish?” over and over. I want see my dreams finished and to me that is having it all together.
Is it only me? I am alone in thinking my dreams are able to be finished in a season. I get so excited about dreaming big but honestly, when reality hits, I am overwhelmed by my own big dreams. If you think I know the answer to getting it all together, you are mistaken. I am slowly learning not having it together is maybe the togetherness we really need right now.
Sounds wrong?….. I know, that’s what you are thinking because I am thinking it too. I really like for bows to be tied and strings to be trimmed; however, not having it together reminds us that we am a work in progress. I have to have grace for myself and need to accept the grace received from the Lord. I have to have patience for the plans to unfold to get me to where my dreams are not as overwhelming.
What is interesting to me is that my emotions toward having things together are part excitement and part concern. The excitement is knowing these dreams are not really my own and the concern is recognizing I am so, so far from being able to see the dreams through. I am sure I am not likely alone in some of these in-between feelings.
Imagine these feelings: one hand— YES, LET’S GO! & one hand— AHHH.. WHAT PLAN IS THAT?
Does that sound familiar? Or really not at all?
That’s me on the daily. My friend C, is the opposite when it comes to his days. He doesn’t feel like he is walking toward crazy dreams and that can overwhelm him. He’s a day-by-day warrior that does really well in the here and now. Either way you feel, we can find ourselves in limbo about having things together.
Today, I am going to hold both feelings in my hands together. I am going to release them to the plan maker. I am going to take a deep breath in and a deep breath out. My big dreams are good and so is the day to day work.
Some questions that sparked this thought process were:
Do you dream?
What are your big dreams?
How do you think or feel about you are reaching your dreams?
Are they your dreams, God’s, or both?
Written: September 28th, 2020
